The mid-atlantic heat and humidity is back in a big way after giving us a break for the first part of August. It is never mild in Maryland in August. It is always as hot as hell. We enjoyed the break but it seemed a little strange and I think the whole state was waiting for the other shoe to fall.
Tonight is family dinner night at my mother's. My brother and possibly his girlfriend and my sister and her husband and son will be there along with myself and my family. It is a crowd and Mom loves it. I think today is mac and cheese night. Hmmmm.
I will start that diet tomorrow.
So, I guess I will get to listen to my brother and sister plan their next get together or talk about their last one as if I am not even in the room. I guess they have no idea that it hurts my feelings that I am never invited. It's not that they try to hide it so they must just not realize that I would love to join them. I don't really know what to do about it, so I stuff these feelings. I am Irish. It is a long-honored, proud tradition to just stuff feelings. Why do you think we drink?
Maybe Dad will call. That can be very nice. I have to take my almost grown daughter to the Community College tonight to visit with an Admissions Counsellor. That should be a good time. Dad will question me again about her plans. It all falls on me even though she is an adult and should be able to make these arrangements without my nagging her. Never mind that I never went to college myself. Bitter? Perhaps a little, on some days. I think it would be a waste of my time to go now at the age of 44. Last year, I wanted to go. This year, I am trying to let go of it, make the best of it. I have a family to care for now, what difference would it make in my life?
I do want to write more. So that is why I have so many darned blogs.
I hope someone is enjoying them.
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